20 May 2021

Wow, can’t believe the last time I updated this space was 3 years ago when I was just a fresh grad stepping out into the adulting world. Fast forward 3 years later, I’m still in the same organisation, trying my best to juggle both life and work.

So much has happened over the past 3 years, many ups and downs but I’m so thankful that God is still faithfully watching over me, guiding me as I take the next step. Indeed, through Christ I can do all things. Work has been pretty challenging, there were many times when I just wanted to just throw the letter and get out of where I am, but then I remind myself why I am here in the first place. Thanking myself for persevering through all the odds for a better tomorrow, o believe no hard work will go to waste. Strive to work harder and you will reap what you sow.

That’s all for the quick update on life, in case you’re wondering if I’m still alive. Still living pretty well, though I’ve aged so much. Turning in after a long day and excited for my first ever trip to USS Singapore. 

Till then.

With love,

Cheryl

DONE WITH Y3S2! hello summer!:)


Woohoo!I'm finally done with year 3,can't be more than happy, really.

Even though I don't really look forward to step into the working world so soon but I rather work than waste my youth studying.It's not that I dislike learning new stuffs, in fact I do enjoy learning things that I'm passionate about and I've never regret doing geography (at least physical geography) but I don't agree with how one's learning is being assessed through a bell curve. I do believe that everyone who've put in efforts deserve decent grades but oh well, there's no other better way to prevent grades inflation than to put everyone on the darn bell curve.

On the bell curve, 0.1 marks may set you apart from others, how cruel and lame the system is that's why I just can't wait to get out of NUS.So tired of having to compete with others semester after semester, I just hope that friendships will stay intact after the four years in hell.

So,on a brighter note, my last paper ended on Wednesday,it was terrible I swear, B+ and I will be super happy. Yes just give me a B+. How I wish we are allowed to SU level 3000 and 4000 mods even if it means using up two SUs for one 5MC level 4000 mod,I'm more than willing to do that. I find it really unfair, the number of physical geog mods have been way lesser than the amount of human geog mods available, this is not holistic geographical education IMO.Me and several other physical geoggers have been putting up with this unfair discrimination since year one but nothing much have changed,it's alright,the end is near,I'm just gonna bear with it for one more year and I'm probably only left with two or three more human mods to do,still thinking whether I should do an ISM or not so I can minimise the number of human 4k mods I have to do:) Still thinking...

Anyway, an ISM only requires 4000 words and I'm sure the report writings in GE4222 have equipped me with the skills to write a 4000 word report within one sem given that we I have written a 8000-word report with two other friends in one sem. Speaking of GE4222,I'm pleasantly surprised by the grade we got for our second report. Desmond and I collected our report after GE4204 finals as I didn't want the grade to affect my performance in GE4204 which is my weakest mod this sem. So after the horrible final paper for 4204 which I screwed up rather badly, I was truly very happy to receive the grade for our 4222 report which is at least an A (Dr Lu couldn't release the grade but only gave us our score because of NUS's policy but good enough). Desmond said it's probably an A+ but let's give it some benefits of doubt yeah?We got A- for the first report,probably just an average score in the class but I do know there's this one BES group who've gotten B+ but since there's no bell curve in level 4000 mods,I think we should be able to secure at least an A- for GE4222 since our class participation and attendance went pretty well too:) I would be so happy if I get at least A for GE4222 so it helps to pull my GE4204 up >.<

GE1064 was alright,but this time round,I made so many careless mistakes arghhhh,those were very minor mistakes that I didn't bother to memorise while revising because I wanted to leave some memory space for more important concepts but oh well,I probably lost a handful of marks here and there but overall I'm pleased with my overall performance for this mod,hopefully with my midterm performance and attendance I can get at least A-? Again,I would be really grateful if I can secure an A or A+ for this mod:)) But I won't ask for much la since psych mods are always very competitive when the whole mod is all about memorising and regurgitation.

Nothing to say about GE4204,I don't have much hopes for that mod,just praying for a B+ that's all, I did learn a lot from that mod, just that I'm not critical enough and I'm not a human geographer so I found the mod quite challenging compared to the physical mods that I'm doing or have done, we did rather badly for the group project (haiz) and I did only average for my individual assignments oh well, really can't be bothered anymore.

GE3227's finals was insanely tough,tougher than the past few years. As usual, whenever I take MR's mods, my batch would always be the guinea pig batch (quoting Desmond) where MR would set a very different and tougher paper,it was like that for GE2228 too but thankfully I got an A+ for that mod so I'm really hoping for at least an A- for 3227 since this mod has a smaller cohort + more smart people = more competitive bell curve....My group did pretty well for the 40% group poster and presentation and I did slightly better than average for the individual 10% critique paper so really hoping that all these would add up to give be at least an A-,would be so sad if I get less than an A- for this physical mods:(

Y3S2's results would be out on 29th May which is not too far away but what's done is done,I will just gladly take whatever results given because I knew I did not give my 100% for this sem and I could've done so much better if I worked harder. Anyway, according to a friend,since I'm not doing thesis and this would mean that I can only get a second upper even if my CAP is 4.5 and above which I'm currently is, there's really no point beating myself up if my CAP drops to second upper haha (more worth right) since employers won't look at the transcript but only the final cert....And he calculated that with my current CAP,I can end up with 25 Bs and still end up with a CAP with at least second upper lol,of course I won't slack off just because of this since my parents paid so much for my school fees and I want to prove myself worthy of their investments in my education plus I don't want my fellow peers to have an easy time off getting all the A-,A and A+ by tanking their bell curve, instead I want to compete with them (despite me hating it so much) and I won't have any regrets when I look back in future:) There's so much satisfaction knowing that you've worked hard and deserve the good grades when you out-compete your peers based on your hardwork :D

Alright, let's not talk about school anymore since SCHOOL'S OUT AND SUMMER'S IN :)))))))))))))

I went to JB with my A2 friends, YJ and Zan one day after my last paper and was thoroughly damn shag. It was a great experience since I hardly ever go to JB and the food there was cheap and quite good woohooo!Also watched Guardians of the Galaxy 2 at only SGD$2 or so!!!!It was so nice of the cinema allowing us to get the student deal despite us holding on to our SG student cards. It was my first movie after so long (the last one was the horrible show we watched in US at USD$15 WTF). We walked around KSL and city square mall,city square mall looks like a typical mall in SG but stuffs were more ex, KSL is more run-down but I prefer it because of the lower prices and vibrancy there. We went to a few cafes but got too full after trying two cafes lol and bought banana cakes from a shop there which was AMAZING! We drove to and fro JB and it reminded me of our fond road trip days,this trip is nothing compared to my SEP days but better than nothing,still appreciate it because every trip is a new and different experience and I love exploring the world:)

I went for my NDP interview the next day and I should be able to get in just like the past few years so not much worries! I bought a few clothes for my internship since we are required to wear office attire except for fridays just like my previous MOE internship and TP admin job so no big deal,just that I want more options HAHA,I would probably go and shop for more working clothes on next wednesday which is a public holiday and since I've paid for train concession which begins tomorrow,I might as well use it:)

So tomorrow is my first day of internship,pretty nervous but excited as well.I'm really grateful for this opportunity given that many of my friends didn't even get an offer or their top choices,I promise to make the best out of this learning opportunity:)

Alright,that's it for today's post,shall catch up on some current affairs and spend some time with my family before internship starts tomorrow!

Oh yeah btw, I'm going to Bangkok from 2 August to 5 August, just before year 4 starts with Sab, Desmond and Jasin,really can't wait for it to happen! :) I've been researching on air tickets and it's going quite well,so now just have to finalise our flight timings and start helping Sab and Jasin with the itinerary :D SEP defintiely trained us well in preparing for trips WOOHOO!

Adios guys!

With Love,
Cheryl



ALMOST DONE~~~~


Week 13 is officially over now:)

So in week 13, I completed GE4222 with the submission of our report and did a presentation on it.

Had my last GE4204 revision lecture in week 13 too and yep, my Y3S2 ended officially on Tuesday. Right now, I have to revise for my 3 final exams which will end on 3rd May and I really can't wait for finals to be over.

Sadly, I don't have any break to look forward to this summer because internship starts on 8 May (less than a week after my last paper) and I have an interview for NDP 2017 scheduled on 5 May! but no complains!After seeing how so many friends failed to secure an internship till now, I'm really grateful that I was offered an internship right after my first interview and it's one of my top internship choice. This really frees me up to embark on a lot of other stuffs like more focus on my school work and extra-curricular activities so I guess I'm really blessed :) Thank God!

I have been doing a lot of psychology and economic experiment studies to earn some cash HAHA to at least cover some money that I've spent on my driving lessons and I've been working at the Office of Admissions every semester including two vacation periods and the Open Day,I must say that the pay is quite good, considering the relatively light workload and good working environment,I can literally just take the shuttle bus from arts to Utown to work,it's soooooo convenient! Plus because I worked for around 10 hours during open day,my pay was like $100+ for just one day OMG!!!!I don't even get paid so much slogging off at F&Bs or other nonsense part time jobs and here I am, working in the comfort of my school and get paid so well!Signing up to be an OAM ambassador after my SEP was definitely one of the best decisions I've ever made throughout my time in NUS:) Though the amount I earn is not enough to cover my tuition fees or meals but a bit is better than nothing, I earned $714.50 in this semester alone and I don't even feel drained from work cos everything was done during my break and in school HAHAHAHA.

Unfortunately, I won't be able to work with OAM this coming summer:( It's alright, I will be able to work in Y4S1 and Y4S2 too YAY!!!These are some things I'm planning/have to do over the long summer break:
1) Internship
2) NDP 2017
3) NUS Flag Day with FASS
4) Look for internships for winter break
5) Edit and update resume again
6) Start looking for jobs (It's really not too early now, since I'm moving onto year 4 soon,arghhh on one hand I really want to graduate ASAP but on the other, I'm worried about what lies ahead of me, oh well,but at least I think I'm on the right track?Damn thankful that I would have several internships, co-curricular and voluntary work records, part time jobs, overseas exposures and decent academic achievements under my belt when I graduate, uni life is all about proper planning and I'm really grateful that I forced myself to participate in all sorts of events/activities/programs whenever I'm free to commit my time)

Okay all these updates aside, I really ought to start mugging seriously for finals cos I really don't want my CAP to plunge in this semester, given that I've worked so hard for the past few semesters ao it would really be a waste if I don't do well this sem T.T

So just a prediction for this semester's performance:
GEK1064: A-
GE3227: A-
GE4204: B+
GE4222: A-

To be honest, I don't really have any faith this semester,if I do end up with those grades above,I would be more than happy already. Of course, I definitely would like to end up with at least one A every sem but judging from my current progress, A- would be good enough. Arghhhh, God please grant me the courage and motivation to work hard for my Y3S2 results!

Okay, that's a short breather for me,gotta start mugging real hard and see you guys again after FINALS!!!Wish me luck:)

With Love,
Cheryl

YASSSSSS IT'S WEEK 12 ALREADY:)


Really can't believe it's week 12 already, but I'm happy to know that this sem is gonna be over real soon and that I will be embarking on my final year in half a year's time. Have been waiting to graduate from NUS since day 1 and till today, I'm still super happy to know that I'm just left with 2 more semesters before I can gtfo NUS.

YES!!!!It's bloody week 9 already


It's Monday today but not suffering from as much Monday blues compared to Mondays on even weeks cos NO SCHOOL!!!:)

BUT I'm stuck at home doing my GE4204 second individual assignment, haiz, life of a year 3 uni student really sucks.

Anyway, I've received my driving license on thursday via registered mail,thankfully I happened to be at home at that time when the postman arrived SO SO happy!

Passing my driving test, getting an internship offer and knowing that I would be graduating in slightly more than a year's time are the things that make me feel like I'm still worth something and that life is not so sucky as it seems:) Just want to do one thing at a time and I believe I will be able to survive all these shit, the world is so darn competitive and I'm so tired of competing for everything in life,sometimes I just wish I would never wake up again.

Wish me luck for my GEK1064 midterm test on this Friday!

Okay,back to studying again-.-

With Love,
Cheryl

A step at a time [WEEK 8]


Hey guys!I'm back:)

Ahhhh, finally found time to update this humble space of mine.Have been really occupied with lots of stuff for the past few weeks and I felt the need to take some time off school and all the commitments to pen down my thoughts here.

I'm currently left with one more midterm exam and a few other projects and assignments due soon so I'm still in the midst of clearing my work but as always,I'm taking a step at a time to clear things slowly,I really love pacing myself such that I won't feel so overwhelmed cos things will eventually work out anyway,no point stressing yourself out like how I did in the past,such a big fool.

So,I've met with some conflicts with one of my project group mate,she's actually part of our geog clique but I knew she has some kind of EQ issues and she somehow always ended up in a conflict with everyone even though there wasn't any conflict to begin with. But well, at least she was willing to admit on her fault so yep,that issue was resolved and we are currently embarking on our next project:)

Other than this project issue,the past few weeks have been pretty smooth sailing for me except for maybe being sick for the whole of last week, the weather is rather erratic these few days so guys, please take good care of your health!!!Really not a good time to fall sick when you have so many things due soon but I'm grateful for friends who've been by my side,helping me whenever I'm in need, really grateful and should they have the need for my help in future,I will make sure I'm there for these people:D Having a bunch of good friends in NUS is really important, I really can't picture myself surviving school for so long without them.

So these are the highlights for the past few weeks:
1)Completed Geog Challenge Prelims 2017 on 25 February 2017
2)Passed my 2nd TP Test on 4 March 2017
3)Completed 40% of GE4222 CA

For Geog Challenge, I'm really glad that it's finally over now. I was involved in both GC prelim planning and execution so I've been working with GCOC since last september. I wouldn't say it's super time-consuming but it's not too chill either.I had to attend meetings, set questions for GC, undergo rounds of vetting, trying out test papers and dry runs before the actual day. I would say that it was a good experience for me to learn how fellow peers in GCOC managed to run the whole event by themselves and was glad to meet some new friends along the way. This would probably be my first and last GC involvement,I don't really like doing the same thing multiple times unless it really interests me and I believe being involved in other aspects of Geog soc would probably be more beneficial for me by exposing me to other stuffs:)

ANDDDDDD here comes the long awaited post for my TP test:) I've been dying to blog about my TP journey ever since I've passed my retest last saturday and I would say that this has been the greatest motivation for me to update my blog today HAHA!So for those who don't know, I've been learning how to drive since 2016. I took my BTT and FTT under CDC (I chose CDC because I live in the extreme east and it would only make sense for me to go to CDC) as a school student cos stupid me did not know that I was able to save so much money if I took my theories as a private student LOL,so I recommended the private route to my sister who's currently considering whether to start learning driving.I passed both theories with one try, both 50/50 okay lame,nobody cares about theory...I decided to enrol myself as a private student for my practical test because school driving lessons are really expensive and the most important reason for why I've opted for private instead of school is the flexibility and convenience of booking lessons with a private instructor. I really don't have the luxury and energy to camp by my computer to book lessons if I went for school. So right after I passed my BTT in June 2016, I started to source for a private driving instructor online and through word of mouth but my final decision was made based on an online PDI review. I went for auto (class 3A) instead of manual btw, because I don't see a need to learn manual driving given that most cars are now auto and I doubt I would ever have the courage to drive overseas (I don't even dare to drive on the expressway in SG yet).

I was quite fortunate to get a decent PDI,my instructor's name is Mr Koh (you can drop me a chat with your conteact info in my chatbox for his details if you're keen) and Mr Koh only teaches class 3A. He's really nice, patient and punctual, he have never scolded me throughout the whole journey with him though I must admit that my driving skills really sucked. He's also very punctual for all his lessons and I never had to call him to remind him of my lessons unlike some of my friend's irresponsible instructor. I honestly believe that your instructor really plays a very important role in your journey to get a driving license because a bad instructor really makes life even harder for someone who has zero experience in driving. My driving lessons are $36/hr for outside driving and around $64/hr for circuit since I am a private student and I usually book circuit lessons from 6pm-7pm because that's when the circuit is relatively empty and the sky is still bright, making it the most ideal time for me to learn circuit therefore,I have to pay slightly more for better circuit conditions. I don't see any point in learning circuit driving at night when the sky is dark since your test is in the day plus there's really no point saving up on circuit by opting for congested time slots because you will just end up wasting your time and money queuing up to do the various stations. If you are planning to learn under Mr Koh now,his lessons are now $38/hr already because he recently changed his car from Toyota Vios to Mitsubishi Lancer and he said that the latter's fuel economy is not as good as the Vios so he has to increase his lesson rate to recover some fuel costs (phewwww so lucky that I joined him earlier)! His rates are actually slightly higher than other PDIs but not too high,I'm still willing to pay more for a better instructor.

My first driving lesson was on 10 July 2016 (Sunday) and that was before I got my FTT. I decided to start learning driving before my FTT because I could speed up the whole learning time and I was very confident that I will pass my FTT on my first try which is just 2-3 weeks after my first lesson so not much problems!I took a total of around 34 lessons (including circuit lessons) before my first TP test on 17 December 2016 but unfortunately,I failed. For my first TP test, my time slot was supposed to be the best slot at 10.15am according to Mr Koh and online forums as that is when the circuit and outside roads are clear but oh well, I wasn't really confident with myself that day and met a tester who wasn't very friendly. After failing the first test, I then booked another 6 lessons before the second test from January 2017 to March 2017,I went for 3 outside driving and 3 circuits before the test with no warm up this time round. Just like the first test, I chose to take my TP test on a saturday because I have school in the weekdays and saturdays are when ubi roads are slightly emptier since the industries are closed on saturdays. Mr Koh initially helped me to book my retest on 25 February (10.15am) but I had GC prelims the whole day so fml,had to say goodbye to the 10.15am good slot but I was very fortunate that Mr Koh managed to get me a slot at 11am on 4 March 2017. He told me 11am is good too but not as good as 10.15am because the circuit will be more congested at 11am but I had no choice and I believe that if you practise hard enough and is confident with your own skills, coupled with a reasonable tester, you will pass. Plus I've always been told that as long as you avoid the morning and evening peak slots,the chances of you passing is quite decent so I decided to just take the 11am slot and true enough, I performed well and passed at that slot:)

For my first test, I was still nursing a really bad fever and sore throat plus the lack of test experience caused me to loose focus. I was tested for all components in the circuit (so you can see why sometimes a good slot with less congested circuit conditions might not be ideal after all) and the sequence were as follows: directional change->ramp->S course->slope->parallel parking->crank course->vertical parking->Ebrake. I striked the kerb at parallel parking, at station 43 right beside the slope which is my weakest parallel parking lot because there's no sighting point for you to turn out unlike other parallel parking lots. I didn't reverse back enough before I turned out and strike the kerb unfortunately. Actually I kinda knew I had the chance of striking kerb but did not want to reverse back fearing that at that weird angle which I've never encountered before, I might risk mounting or striking kerb at the rear end so I decided to try my luck but was unlucky:( Right after the mishap at parallel parking, the malay tester became even stricter with me and my whole mind was on the mistake at parallel parking. I had no other major mistakes in the circuit but my outside driving was disastrous. I don't know if testers will really stick to the route that was balloted for you or they can just pick any routes for you during the test itself (I've heard too many different sayings so I can't tell which is more credible) but I was brought to a route that I was unfamiliar with. Mr Koh had never brought be to the route that goes to Eunos Link and requires you to do a Uturn in heavy traffic but it was a legit test route,I was quite upset with Mr Koh after this because even after 30 odd lessons,he failed to bring me there.The unfamiliarity together with heavy traffic at Eunos Link since it's near the MRT station coupled with my mind on the mistake I made,I totally lost myself and almost got into an accident at the Uturn part where I had to filter 3 lanes to do the Uturn.That near accident only took place when I was changing at the 3rd to 4th lane and that's quite unfair because even qualified drivers find it hard to change so many lanes within such a short period of time and I was awarded an immediate failure for that "improper action almost causing an accident). I missed the Uturn point too and had to make a huge detour back to CDC. On the way, the malay tester just kept reprimanding him but I was too upset to care about what he said and I was thinking to myself "that's it,today's a wasted trip and I have to make the decision whether to continue learning or just give up". I got 1 immediate failure and 30 demerit points on my first try, my friend actually got 52 demerit points so I guess that's the only thing that made me feel slightly better.Right after the test,the malay tester told me to try again and learn from my mistakes and I went home right away with no mood to even top up my CDC account to book my next retest. Mr Koh was really nice about it,and he told me to not give up and he will help me book the retest and top up my account for me. I had the though of giving up but knowing that I've spent so much money and time on learning how to drive,I shouldn't give up just because I failed the first time. It took me some time to have the courage to resume my lessons. This time round,I made sure I work on my weaknesses which are lane-changing and parallel parking so I took some outside driving lessons at peak hours to train myself to change lanes properly. I believe that if I can handle lane-changing at peak hours, I definitely would find lane-changing during my retest manageable:) For circuits,I made sure I was confident with every station and I practised very hard on my parallel parking, before the retest I was so stressed but I didn't want to overburden myself since I had other work to do too and I fell sick again on the monday of that week but I guess my hardwork really boosted my confidence. The night before my test,I couldn't sleep at all and had only 2 hours of sleep?!? I told myself that after 40 lessons,I'm well prepared enough and nothing can stop me from getting the license I deserve,not even the tester. My tester this time round was a chinese guy,he's nice but not overly nice as in he just kept quiet throughout the test and just gave me instructions. He was late for 5 minutes and I was the last one to be called out this time round (the previous time I was also one of the last few to be called out) and I was really nervous in the waiting room. When I got into the car with the tester, I told myself that I can do this and the test is really short so I just have to perform well in this 30 minutes and I calmed down a lot and started the circuit component. I was tested in this sequence: directional change->ramp->slope->parallel parking->S course-> crank course->vertical parking. I didn't get tested on Ebrake because the circuit was still congested and that's one good reason to take your test when the circuit is congested to avoid Ebrake or even some other stations potentially. I got parallel parking at 43 again, really strong fate with that fking lot but this time round,I did all my safety checks and procedures carefully and slowly and after completing the parallel parking without any mistakes I felt really relieve and believe that there was a high chance that I could pass this time round. At the S course which is one of my least confident station because there's no sighting points at all but to rely on my gut feeling (surprisingly I've never strike or mounted kerb at S course before),I made sure I drove through it carefully and steadily and sure enough,it was one of the most perfectly executed S course driving I've done before:)) Vertical parking was a little scary cos my right wheels were quite close to the kerb but I remembered Mr Koh telling me that sometimes if you go slow enough,you might still be able to make it and I did not want to do corrections because each corrections will increase the chances of getting so mistakes so I inched slowly into the parking lot praying hard that I won't hit the kerb and I didn't woohoo! Since it was my last circuit station, I felt really happy that I survived the circuit and that gave me even more motivation to do well for my outside driving. I went out through the side gate this time round and only had to do a short route at upper paya lebar,I think the tester cut short the route knowing that I can drive well:D

In a short moment,I was on my way back to CDC, happily returning the car to Mr Koh while I followed the tester up to collect my test results:) I knew I had around 90% chance of passing but I was still afraid that I missed out on something. While waiting for the tester to print my test report,I overheard a boy who also took the test at my time slot crying while his tester reprimanded him for making some mistake,I felt really sorry for that boy as I fully understand the feeling when your tester told you that you've failed the test given that I went through the same just a few months before.My tester came back and told me to go down and watch the graduation video and explained the minor mistakes that I've made and told me the procedures to apply for a license:) I got only 8 demerit points with 0 immediate failures and I was really happy to finally see the PASSED on my test report:) I went down to look for Mr Koh before watching the graduation video and Mr Koh was really happy for me,so thankful to have a nice instructor!

I was super happy and the gory scenes in the video did little to scare me as I was still thinking of who I should send my result slip too HAHA.My family and friends were very happy and proud of me and I'm glad that I've made the choice to hide my retest date from most people except 3.

So to all who've failed your TP test,don't give up because you're just a step away from your license. You will only let yourself down if you give up now after putting in so much efforts and spending so much in your pursue to get your driving license. If so many people including myself can get it,I believe you can too,jia you!

That's all for now,got to catch up on some work,good bye!

With Love,
Cheryl

JUST BRING ME BACK TO CANADA


Arghhhh,I'm back here again,I just can't seem to focus on my essay. I've been finding ways to escape from doing the darn GE4204 essay till yesterday but because it's due tomorrow plus tomorrow's gonna be a super hectic day for me,I have to finish it by tonight:(

I'm around 70% done I guess. I've got the whole structure out,done with intro and the first paragraph, added in all the pictures and I'm currently still working on the last paragraph and the conclusion. I need to tidy up my reference list and read through everything again before submission haiz damn sian...

Many times like this,I just want to go back to my exchange days, not saying the workload there is light NOT AT ALL please,fuck those who kept saying that you don't bloody have to study during SEP! But at least I didn't felt the stress to ace all my modules unlike here,and SEP was the ONLY time I learned things that I really like and will remember for a long time. Shits I learned in NUS are just ephemeral redundant info to me,I will just forget every fuck I've learned once I step out of the exam hall in NUS. This happened without fail EVERY SINGLE SEM and I don't give a damn about not learning anything in NUS,yeah my parents paid my tuition fees with all their savings but I got what they and I want - a good honours cert,that's all I want,zero fucks given for learning TYVM.

Really, what's the point of working so darn hard to understand the concepts behind everything only to get trashed by the bell curve,might as well just memorise every shit and regurgitate right? After five semesters in NUS (excluding my SEP sem) I honestly don't give any damns on learning anymore.

Thank God for this blog,I really have no other place to rant and pen down my daily emotions and thoughts because no bloody person in this world cares about my feelings,I tried talking about how I dislike the education system to my parents and they just shut me up and asked me to work hard and bring the family glory, they will just say if XXXX can do so well,there's no reason why I can't achieve what XXXX did, and those friends of mine will just say "aiya, what can we do?can only just suck it up and study so next time at least still can find job?" Maybe to sweep the roads?Nah nobody cares about the value of learning anymore,because you just simply can't afford to spend so much money and time on doing something you like but not doing well so we became so damn used to rote learning like fking robots and not knowing where we are heading to.

It's 3pm now,I ought to get back to work but I really have zero motivation to do everything now.I can't wait for this essay to be submitted, get done with fking Open Day, Geog Challenge and all the projects and field work. I finally realised why seniors in NUS don't give any flying fucks about attendance and class participation because WE ARE JUST TO TIRED AND SICK OF NUS AFTER SO MANY SEMESTERS.

On a side note,does anyone know where can I buy good and cheap refurbished Macbook? I'm still considering on whether to get a new laptop or not. My current laptop has been with me for 5 years already and though it's a bit laggy now it still works perfectly fine, it also looks relatively new though some of the keyboard paint has peeled off and there's some dents because I dropped it twice during SEP T.T But super lucky to have my laptop still working and surviving well despite its age and what it has went through:) If anyone has any idea on the refurbish Macbook sale or even recommendations for laptop trade-ins,I would be grateful if you can leave me a note in my chatbox in this blog!^^

See ya then! -End of rant-

With Love,
Cheryl

PROCRASTINATING YET AGAIN


Honestly,I really want to do well in lots of stuffs but I'm just too fking lazy to do anything.I've been super duper hardworking when I was back in primary,secondary,JC and during my junior years in NUS but look at me now,I can only see a sloth-like human in the mirror-.-

Ever since I came back from SEP,I just can't seem to find any motivation to work hard or to even finish what I OUGHT to do, things like a 500 word essay can take me like 4 days to finish when I could have finish it in an hour in the past.

I really should wake up right now,I don't know why I've became soooooo lazy these days,I'm actually supposed to complete a 1400 word essay which is due this friday but I've not typed even a single word and here I am whining about how heavy my workload is.

Anyway,at least I'm not THAT lazy when it comes to applying for internships lol hahaha maybe it's because my parents told me that they won't be giving me pocket money once I complete my uni studies which is very very SOON:( And I'm really worried about my future knowing how sucky the economy is right now (so not a good time to graduate arghhhhh).

BUT!!!Hahaha at least my hard work paid off for internship applications.I've actually being offered an internship with HDB and I've already accepted their offer, really grateful and ohmy the interview wasn't easy at all,it was an hour long interview with the panel consisting of a HR staff,the deputy head of the department I applied to and another senior manager. I went for the interview last Tuesday (7 February 2017) and my interview was at 4pm at HDB's HQ at Toa Payoh. I had six hours of lessons that morning at had to rush for the interview after my lessons,god it was sooooo tiring and nerve-wrecking. I was so worried about being late because my lesson ended at 1.30pm and I had to eat because I didn't had time to eat anything thanks to the six hour non-stop lectures,I just bought a small bowl of noodles from Deck and gobbled everything down within 5 minutes AND I HAD STOMACHACHE right after that and I was so scared that I would have stomachache during the interview LOL but thankfully that didn't happen:)

So on my way to Toa Payoh from NUS,I took the time to continue reading up on HDB and prepare myself for the interview by trying out potential interview questions,I know it's quite silly to be so stressed up for an internship interview since it's not even an interview for my career but practising and reading up on stuffs did gave me the confidence that I need,I'm a person who hates going for an interview empty-minded and I think it pays to put in more effort in preparing oneself for an interview cos you never know what the interviewers might throw at you.So I arrived very early surprisingly,I reached at around 3pm, took some time to locate the building (West Wing), changed my student card for a visitor pass, went to the toilet and looked for the HR person.I was then ushered into a waiting area with sofas and some magazines. At around 3.45pm, my geog friend arrived and I was surprised to learn that he was also there for the internship interview HAHA. There was another geog major whom I don't know but from year 2 at the internship and there was this Malay year 2 NUS Biz guy who was late for the interview. I think it's really rude to be late for an interview given that the interviewers took time off to interview us and as an applicant,the least we can do for ourselves is to reach earlier so that we won't be feeling so lost and flustered during the interview.

The interview was broken up into two parts, first part was a sharing session by the deputy head for us to know more about HDB and what they do,so we can ask the staffs questions about HDB then the next part was for the four of us to take turns to ask questions/share our opinions related to HDB and OF COURSE,this requires you to do some background research LA!So never ever step into an interview empty-headed thinking that you can smoke through etc,no you don't,you will just blank out and feel nervous.The good thing about doing your homework before interviews is that even though you might be asked questions that you've never prepared for,you can still try to tweak the answers that you've prepared for to your favour like I wasn't very sure about some GIS work HDB does since I'm not interested in GIS and have never taken GIS mods but given my background in cartography and remote sensing,I was able to tweak my answers and showcase my ability in carto and remote sensing and because I did bother to read up on HDB, asked my relatives who are working at HDB and was attentive during all lectures in NUS,I was able to answer all the interview questions and I guess that gave me an edge.

Stanley and myself got the internship offer 2 days after the interview and I'm sure the other two applicants got the offer too,they could answer the questions quite well too and I could see they did their homework as well. We were given 3 days to accept/reject their offer and I accepted their offer on the day they called me. Right now,I'm still getting internship interview offers from MCCY,Tote Board,MHA and a few other stats board (I've only applied to the public service) and I'm feeling slightly more optimistic about my field of studies and career prospects now though it doesn't mean I can slack off.I guess having decent grades (I'm currently at first-class) brings you further,most of my friends who are currently at second-uppers or lower have yet to even receive any offers for interviews and some are panicking now:(

So I really hope I can stop procrastinating and continue to strive for excellence,I used to be so motivated and hardworking and I hope I will do myself a big favour by STARTING ON MY ESSAY NOW!!!!Jiayou to myself:)

With internship application done,my next major hurdle would be my driving test and midterms:) I WILL GET MY LICENSE THIS TIME ROUND I PROMISE,so please wait for my good news,I have faith and I'm determined to get my license!

Till then^^

With Love,
Cheryl

SHAG


I really can't believe the first 4 weeks of Y3S2 flew by just like that:( Really felt like my last paper of Y3S1 ended yesterday. Sianzzzzz....I know right, shouldn't I be happy that the days are passing by so quickly so that I will get to graduate asap HAHA. But I really dread the upcoming few weeks where all the school work will just keep piling up like nobody's business.

Y3S2 Week 3


I'm back,survived 2 weeks of Y3S2 and I can't really say Y3S2 is going to be a breeze,at least not with so many things ongoing. Actually,I'm supposed to finish up my GEK1064 journal which is due tomorrow but I just.... can't stop myself from procrastinating (what's new).

So today, I woke up at 7am from an extremely condusive weather to sleep in on a Sunday morning all thanks to my driving lesson scheduled at 9am. So reluctantly,I dragged myself out of the bed at 7,ate a bit,showered and headed out at 8am. Had outside driving today,it's my 34th driving lesson since the first day and I'm slightly more than a month away from my next TP test,I really hope I can pass on the second try:( Practised the usual routes,quite uneventful and the roads were pretty empty since most people would still be sleeping at 9am on Sunday haha,how I wish my tp test,which is at 11am on a Saturday morning can be as empty as today too. The only annoying thing today was the traffic lights. So I was driving back to CDC after doing a Uturn at Eunos Link (I made it a point to do Uturn at Eunos Link every outside driving lesson just in case if I get the darn route again on my second test *choy*,Mr Koh said the route I got was actually one of the hardest route at CDC even harder than the infamous Macpherson Uturn fml) then I was at this huge junction at Eunos and the lights were green when I was damn near to the stop line so I accelerated and went ahead,Mr Koh was clearing the car at that time and didn't pay attention to the roads so I only had myself to rely on,and when I drove pass the traffic lights,it was amber so there was totally no time to stop at all and the lights turned red when I was halfway through the junction,fortunately I was smart enough to accelerate and quickly clear the junction. Mr Koh looked up and saw the red lights then he was like "Red lights leh!" I replied him nonchalantly saying that when I crossed the traffic lights then the lights turned amber so no time to stop at all. WTF,I paid him to clear his car of rubbish,totally damn pissed off,I have a feeling that he doesn't really care whether you pass or not,he just wants to earn your money that's all,like most of the time when I was driving during lessons,he just talked on his phone or just do something else like checking his logbook or cleaning his car,haiz,it's really hard to get a good driving instructor even if you're a school student so I will just bear with it and hopefully can get my license ASAP so I don't have to waste any more money on driving lessons...Really really hope I get a good tester,good route and good weather on my test date and the rest is up to my own driving skills.I'm quite confident with my skills already (I hope) after driving for 34 lessons OMG that's like so much money gone :( But oh well,at least I'm a private student instead of school,I'll probably be bankrupted now if I went for school and failed the first tp test.....But I'm quite happy with the progress I've made for changing lanes,I've been practising a lot on this cos that was the reason I failed my first tp test,I realised getting empty roads really help,I always feel jittery about changing lanes in heavy traffic:( So pleaseeeeeee bless me with empty roads during my tp test so I can change lanes smoothly:(

Then after my driving lesson ended at 10am,I headed back hope intending to complete my journal but went to practise piano,slack a bit,had lunch,bathed and turned on my laptop to start with my journal.Haizzz the inertia to start was too huge and I ended up applying for internships in the end HAHA but not bad,that was another task to be completed on my to-do-list for the week so it wasn't a waste of time YAY;D I've applied for 20 odd internships but have yet to receive any news for interviews yet,fingers crossed:( I'm supposed to start my journal really soon but thought of penning down some of my thoughts here first because there's just so many stuffs happening for the past few weeks,both good and bad.

Met many friends who've just came back from their SEP,they flooded me with loads of souvenirs,really grateful:)I'm just happy that they're back,like my beloved Aunty Mel,Grace,Jasin and Gladys,these are the people that saw me through 3 years of uni life and I wouldn't have been able to survive so long in NUS without them and of course not forgetting other friends like Desmond,Sab,TA,friends from NUS Ambassador and my SEP friends:)I've just met Elaine jie jie last wednesday and I'm so happy to be able to catch up on life with her,it's been sooooo long since I last saw her.Really miss my exchange days:( I met JS too,during GEK1064 lecture and made new friends (JS's aerospace friends) they're all so smart and hardworking omg,I'm so gonna tank bell curve for them:( Speaking of bell curve,I fking didn't get onto Dean's List AGAIN. At this point, I really have nothing much to say but I'm just very disappointed that all my hard work weren't sufficient to grant me a Dean's List that I've always wanted so badly. JS is on Dean's List again and I believe he deserve it,but I just can't help but feel sorry for myself. I've yet to receive any Dean's List for even once and perhaps I'm going to have to graduate with regrets in a year's time oh well. At least the least I can do is to maintain my CAP at first class........

I'm taking 4 modules this semester with a total of only 18 MCs (underloading) because there aren't many mods that I'm interested in this semester so I will have to overload next semester to make up for the shortfall in MCs.I'd rather do mods I'm interested in than do mods for the sake of MCs.I'm doing GE4222 (went through lots of torture to appeal for this mod),GE4204 (spent 2000+ points from my P account to bid for it damn),GEK1064 and GE3227.My predicted grades as of now are: A-,B+,A,A,I would be more than happy to get this set of results:)

Oh and before I forget,I almost died in GE4204 lecture last tuesday.Tuesday is my most dreaded day of the week cos of the 6 hours back to back lecture:( And I'm not really interested in GE4204 but that's like the most interesting 4k mod in human geog so no choice. The reason why I almost died in class was because of my nightmare. It's been quite some time since I got intense,painful cramps but in this latest episode (my period came on Tuesday morning) and as most people would know,the 2 hour travel to school was super chilly since it was super early in the morning,omg the cramps were really unbearable.Thankfully I got a seat since I boarded at Pasir Ris and there were a few elderly who boarded the train later.I really wanted to offer them my seat though I wasn't sitting on the reserved seat but I was really worried that I would faint from the cramps if I stood up so I had no choice but to continue sitting down I felt so guilty omg. It was soooooo painful during GE4204 and I totally had no mood to pay attention to class or contribute in the group discussion.Damn troublesome and annoying to be a weak female...Just glad that it came before CNY otherwise it would be so damn inconvenient since it's really a torture having to think of ways to change your pad and find a place to dispose it discretely when you're at your relative's house.Warning**** this might be a bit TMI so gtfo if you're squeamish about blood related stuffs.I didn't mention this in my previous posts but due to exam stress,I missed my period for like 3 months so this period was long overdue (that probably explain why it was so painful) and I had really heavy bleeding from day 1 to 3,I was passing out blood clots and had to change pad as often as once in 2 hours,I usually can last for at least 4-5 hours for a pad.I normally change when I go and pee and the moment I sat down on the toilet bowl,I will start passing blood clots into the toilet bowl while I pee and change,quite gross but worrying too.I'm feeling quite dizzy now so probably I'd lost quite a lot of blood:(

haiz fml,damn terrible to be me but I'm sure I will be able to survive all this challenges:)

Happy CNY everyone,I won't be blogging anytime soon I think!Stay happy and healthy!

With Love,
Cheryl




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